Love, ardour, benevolence, philia
Take a moment and give me your ear’
Indifference, apathy, nonchalance,
Let me take this chance;
To subliminally release
With hardly any ease
That which troubles my inner calm
Though you ought to be my soothing balm.
Of emotional sorts
That I can take up in minute shots
In the troubled sea.
At first it was all merry bliss.
As I received your first kiss.
Was a pillar in my emotional mess;
A sturdy anchor
That could hold down an 18-wheeler tanker.
It was rainbows and unicorns
Though even love has its pros and cons.
Now though I have a diff’ story to tell
A sound reminiscent of the death knell.
I drop two coins in the wishing well
Hear the peal of the church bell’;
Was what I want
Though now I have no choice but to punt.
Now it’s all indifference
Better if it were hate aversion,
Take the decision
Out of empathy.
‘Cause it was once said
“The opposite of love is not hate,
I’ll just reiterate
Better I hate
Than you to Coventry I send.
I hope you get to read this
I don’t want you to be perplex’
Puzzle, baffle, gravel or vex.
It’s as clear as day and night
That very soon you might
Lose what you love for good
I should stop this if I could
But the ball now is in your park
So decide how you’ll throw it back.
Just won’t quite;
you us in deciding what’s right.
Let’s all talk and bare our feeling’
And know what hand we’ll next be dealing…
Dreams are shattered, hope is lost
E’r one is dull, though I’m the host
Ambience is low, morale is down
Theme is gloom, so don funeral gown
Heat is absent, hence chill to frost
Inside is rot
Smiling is by rote
Attention is craved, despair is received
Life loses lustre, though twas alabaster
Lessons learned, experiences lived
Utopia dissolved, reality precipitates
Reasons denied, excuses abundant
Internal turmoil, my mind agitates
No one cares, I become flippant
Gone with the wind, existence denied.
“Please dad lighten your mind,
In your heart pease do find
The time to carry me around
I’ll promise not to make a sound…”
Yes, this is another subconscious manifestation of my gigai while still trapped on this planet.. I experienced this dream on Monday but for some purpose I couldn’t come to post though I wanted to post it ASAP.. All I could do was to record it in my Dream Journal.. This time though my sub-manifest was oh so vivid like it was watching a 3D movie at your cinema theatre.. So lifelike was it that when I got back to this nightmare called life on earth I could hear the closing soundtracks strumming in my brain..
I can’t promise you the same experience I felt but I’ll do my best as the Deity of the Universe of Infinite to replicate the mood and tone of the manifest with my limited resources.. If you have the following files handy play it while reading the post; maybe later on I will modify the post to include the sounds..
Opening OST; Above and Beyond: Set Me Free
1. On the Precipice of Defeat by Sagisu Shirou
2. Driving to Heaven by Tiesto
3. La Distancia Para un Duelo by Sagisu Shirou
Closing OST; Saika and Loneliness (Naruto OST)
For those who play Subway Surfers this month of July is set in Rio.. The sub-manifest takes place in a setting between a jungle and the Rio scene though don’t include the trains nor coins nor jetpacks..
I was in the jungle on a cable car having two friends along- a guy and a monkey or was it a marsupalami? As usual with my dreams I either am being chased or doing the chasing. This time we were chasing after somebody/something when I made a telepathic connection with the deity of the land. (Yes deity to deity connection; very clear connection and unlimited talk plan). The god was an evil being and knowing too well his or her nature I rejected her advances. I say her because the god started pursuing me so I hastily broke off the connection but I knew we would be relentlessly pursued. (You humans have a saying that goes Hell hath no fury than a woman scorned). True enough a flow of lava shot from the ground trying to drown us.
* “Hadou # 88 Danku,” I shouted and the split void protected the rear of the cable car. The lava’s inertia of motion pushed the cable car farther up the mountain. I repeatedly had to shout the Hadou #88 to regenerate the force field.
Seeing we weren’t roasted, the demon honoured us with her presence and attacked us. Knowing too well its power, an incantationless Hadou #88 wouldn’t save us so I had to chant it quickly..
**”Guardian Angel, Superior Protector, bring unto me the fruits that thine garden doth bare; as I render unto you. Ensure that the attempts of the malicious Demons prove fruitless! Annihilate their offences! Vanquish their hopes! Split the Void! Hadou #88 Danku!”
A five layered void shielded us from the demon’s attack by due to the force of both the attack and the defence the cable car snapped and we fell headlong into the river below. I lost contact with my friends and blacked out..
I came to in the city; where I had taken an item and was being attacked by sword-bearing people. Instantly my Hadou #88 came in handy protecting me until the point where I came in contact with a close combat nail-cutter thrower. (yes a nail cutter thrower; even I was shocked I was expecting a shuriken or kunai)
I knew it was dangerous so when he threw the first one I caught it. It must have been his favourite piece because he bombarded me with a hail of nail cutters. Being overwhelmed, I fled running down St. Michael’s street to East Church Road with the thrower still attacking and me all the time chanting Hadou #88.. The Split Void littered the road as I attempted to slow him down.
Without knowing how and why I started flying over the main road. However, unlike in my other dreams where I fly, I wasn’t acrophobic anymore. I actually enjoyed looking down from my height. I headed to a nearby mall and looked at it then headed to a famous hotel in the neighbourhood and a few other places before I decided to land. However my body wasn’t in sync with my mind and so I landed in a place akin to Safari Park..
While flying a realization dawned on me; it was like I knew I was dying slowly for I had no more fear nor regret. My heart and mind were as calm as the deep blue sea..
I almost landed in the pool but stopped in time. Then I saw my body; and was I shocked!. I was dressed in a maroon blazer and a pleated checked skirt. Apparently I was a girl***.
A man stood over my body and I felt a familiar tug at the bottom of my heart. If I’m not mistaken it was my father. A male doctor had my body in his hands. I was in a vegetative state; my tongue swollen and hanging out of my mouth..
“It’s too late sir,” I heard the doctor say. “She used this way to escape and be free. This was her means to get wings and fly.”
My dad was quiet but I could tell he was at loss and quite sad. I found myself entering my body again and struggled to speak..
“She wants to speak but all she can say is mba.”
I realised it was futile to speak soi established a telepathic channel with dad and said:
“I know you haven’t been there for me but I don’t blame you. My choice led to this final result please don’t blame yourself..
Please dad lighten your mind,
In your heart pease do find
The time to carry me around
I’ll promise not to make a sound…”
With that said I left my body and left my crying ‘mba’ as I too shed tears of what would have been but never was…….
With that I woke up. Had I been asleep for a few more seconds, I would have woken up to a wet pillow..
PS: Originally, this was supposed to be the last post by this Deity of the Universe of Infinite; Had I posted this post on Monday the 13th. No, my SPIRIT beam still been repaired but my daughter found a way to transport me back to my Universe. For now though let me stick around some,more on this planet for a little while longer; it can be a day, a month, a year. Until next time these are the Subconscious Manifestations of Resident of Phantasmagoria and Citizen of Dream Land; Upper 1st Tier Diamond Stand
*PS the correct numerical nomenclate is Bakudo #81 but since in the dream I kept saying Hadou #88, I’ll stick to it.. Btw Hadou # 88 is Hiryuu Gekizoku Shinten Raiho.. Go read or watch Bleach and you’ll know..
**Yes I know I should really stop watching Bleach. Just two more episodes left then I’ll be done..
***And for the record I don’t cross-dress nor do I secretly wish to be a girl.. This Deity is sexless neuter being having neither gender nor sex.
There was a man called Felicien
Who called his physician
To treat him and be healed
Then he had the doctor killed
For no real good reason…
The man called Bin Laden
To the world was such a burden
So on May Second
He reached Life’s end
And the terror load was slightly lightened…
A youth named Matheri
Thought he was related to a fairy
Making him drink human blood
And caused quite a flood
Of consternation, causing all to be wary..
The death of Samuel Wanjiru
A celebrated running hero
Made the athletes
Have panic fits
Making the country win zero…
The existence of ISIS
No relation to Osiris
With bloody pomp and fanfare
Killed here and there
Disrupting Syrian Bliss…
Come Chicken Gate Scandal
Too big for a country to handle
In the Body of Election
EACC’s biggest hurdle…
Walking in the desolate woods,
A stream bubbles in da ‘stance,
Creating a sensational sound,
Makes you feel like you in the Alps,
Sun’s warm fingers stretching on the snow,
Melting ice causing a down flow,
This is the journey of the river from the mouth top to the ground low.
Starts as a bubbling brook,
Eroding and loading the river banks,
So awe-ful you just have to look,
Up at the stars n give thanks.
Look at them mass of burning gases,
Shining brightly to give light,
Other sources lightning flashes,
Which makes the heavens light up bright,
I could continue list is endless,
But you’d be muddled to a mess…
He looked around,
His eyes darted from face to face,
His ears ready to get the shocked sound,
No one moved no one flinched,
No eyebrow shook no finger quivered,
Yet he knew beyond all doubt,
The person was here and he would find him out,
Tightened his trouser,
Touched the 1st’s arouser,
It shrank but the man didn’t shiver.
The next objected,
And he was subjected,
To brutal handling.
The 3rd stood still like a post,
It was touched but no response,
She was brought but NO!! It lay limp.
Frustration build up,
As he moved to the 4th.
The British cursed and spat,
The African cussed and slapped- the Brit in his mind..
He looked at all and send them back,
Tomorrow was another day to get the lad.
He looked at his daughter
His eyes ready to slaughter
The nigga who defiled her..
The sun has set,
The wind gets cold,
Appear the denizen
Of the night,
Fill thee with fright..
The moon glows,
Clouds pass by.
Silent on the ground.
Owl swoops overhead
A field mouse will turn up dead..
Cold bites in
Starts to drizzle
White ants foster
Up-down spine travels a chill
Making the traveller lose all will..
Hear the lupus howl
And the silent stalk
Close up with the grizzly growl
In fear thee will baulk
And so starts the chase
As thee looks for hiding place…
Thee scream, thee shout the yell
You stumble trip and fall
The predators pass thee by, thee sigh what a close call
Though thee bleeding on the head
Thee awake on a wet bed..