I still have one more post to upload on my adventures on a Sunday Night 🌃. For now though let me tell of my experience at a recent gathering on a Saturday Evening.
I am a member of a certain social group on a certain messaging platform. This platform group os supposed to be an anime and manga group. Its name is Anime Anonymous. And no, it isn’t the type where we have a meet and start by introducing ourselves to all the Toms, Dicks and Harriets there by saying, “Hi my name is John Doe and I am addicted to anime.” Or “Attention commoners, I am Bakashi Hatake, I am going to use Raikiri on you after I introduce my name.”
As you can see we ain’t that retarded- or so I thought. Anyway this AA group’s main objective are manga and anime. I myself am a recent visitor to the anime world. My roots are in the written literature world but I have decided to visit my close cousins the drawn literature worlders. Yes, when I was small I loved watching Samurai X, Samurai Pizza Cats, Bleach. However it is only of late that I decided to seriously get a tourist visa to the comic world. I got slightly bored of my home ground so I wanted to see the world.
Anyway back to AA, I dropped out of two meets for the sole reason I couldn’t make it as I am a working being. Yeah and also because I didn’t want to meet up with strangers. I at times suffer from panic attacks. This time though I had also decided not to go but because of a good friend of mine back in high school Josi or Ice, he rekindled a dying flame 🔥 in me and because of that I had to meet up with a certain person at the meet. So I RSVP to the host and confirmed my attendance. I checked out of work and headed home 🏠 to change before heading to the appointed party site.
I was supposed to have met up with a few others we head there but I avoided it. After all it meant bonding and my introverted self just will not allow that. Besides I didn’t want to suffer a mini panic attack, so I headed to the site and called the only person I relatively knew better to get me directions to the area. I stood outside the door for like 5 minutes just balancing my yin and yang before I was calm enough to knock the door. I was ushered in and since those present were less than twenty, my manners forced me to greet them all and wear a polyethylene smile to cover my rising phobia. Good thing there was a dog present and it made it easier because it started humping my legs. Oh the agony of having my right leg raped by a canine!!. Well I managed to keep myself unnoticed for almost a longtime just having slight banter with a small number of people.
All the while I was of course reading people and there characteristics while pretending to read or text on Lumidee.. I didn’t find anyone I could relate to cause no one present attained the minimum threshold of 50% for me to talk to. Only one person attained a 48% though she tried to offer me weed.
To cut a very long story short I left the meet past eleven pm after meeting up with my colleague. The main activities taking place were gaming on either PSP, laptops or the screen. There was also huge data transfers of animes and their derivatives from HDDs to HDDs. After gulping down some chow of which I had very big issues with ( I mean I am a food connoisseur and also a hotelier so I can not be conned easily with mocks; that will be a topic for another day) a movie 🎬 was aired though as usual I was busy on Lumidee. Very little interaction was taking place and by that I mean no real effort was made to get to know each other at all. Proof is that I left that place knowing less than fifteen people by name and only having a conversation that was more than pleasantries 🙋 with only four people.. Not that I am complaining besides I had carried my protoplasmic being called Piper over just to tone down my panic attacks.
I felt cheated and let down by the turn of events. Except successfully completing my mission of meeting up with a potential partner I felt it a waste. In fact I managed to steal away unnoticed except for the partner whom I alerted that I was leaving. I left feeling mentally exhausted, gastrically cheated and physically disappointed 😞.
If the next social gathering I attend shall be akin to this one I think I will take an indefinite rain check to social gatherings. After all I am am introverted being..