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Set Me Free – Subconscious Manifestations

“Please dad lighten your mind,
In your heart pease do find
The time to carry me around
I’ll promise not to make a sound…”
Yes, this is another subconscious manifestation of my gigai while still trapped on this planet.. I experienced this dream on Monday but for some purpose I couldn’t come to post though I wanted to post it ASAP.. All I could do was to record it in my Dream Journal.. This time though my sub-manifest was oh so vivid like it was watching a 3D movie at your cinema theatre.. So lifelike was it that when I got back to this nightmare called life on earth I could hear the closing soundtracks strumming in my brain..
I can’t promise you the same experience I felt but I’ll do my best as the Deity of the Universe of Infinite to replicate the mood and tone of the manifest with my limited resources.. If you have the following files handy play it while reading the post; maybe later on I will modify the post to include the sounds..
Opening OST; Above and Beyond: Set Me Free
In-Dream OST;
1. On the Precipice of Defeat by Sagisu Shirou
2. Driving to Heaven by Tiesto
3. La Distancia Para un Duelo by Sagisu Shirou
Closing OST; Saika and Loneliness (Naruto OST)

For those who play Subway Surfers this month of July is set in Rio.. The sub-manifest takes place in a setting between a jungle and the Rio scene though don’t include the trains nor coins nor jetpacks..
I was in the jungle on a cable car having two friends along- a guy and a monkey or was it a marsupalami? As usual with my dreams I either am being chased or doing the chasing. This time we were chasing after somebody/something when I made a telepathic connection with the deity of the land. (Yes deity to deity connection; very clear connection and unlimited talk plan). The god was an evil being and knowing too well his or her nature I rejected her advances. I say her because the god started pursuing me so I hastily broke off the connection but I knew we would be relentlessly pursued. (You humans have a saying that goes Hell hath no fury than a woman scorned). True enough a flow of lava shot from the ground trying to drown us.
* “Hadou # 88 Danku,” I shouted and the split void protected the rear of the cable car. The lava’s inertia of motion pushed the cable car farther up the mountain. I repeatedly had to shout the Hadou #88 to regenerate the force field.
Seeing we weren’t roasted, the demon honoured us with her presence and attacked us. Knowing too well its power, an incantationless Hadou #88 wouldn’t save us so I had to chant it quickly..
**”Guardian Angel, Superior Protector, bring unto me the fruits that thine garden doth bare; as I render unto you. Ensure that the attempts of the malicious Demons prove fruitless! Annihilate their offences! Vanquish their hopes! Split the Void! Hadou #88 Danku!”
A five layered void shielded us from the demon’s attack by due to the force of both the attack and the defence the cable car snapped and we fell headlong into the river below. I lost contact with my friends and blacked out..
I came to in the city; where I had taken an item and was being attacked by sword-bearing people. Instantly my Hadou #88 came in handy protecting me until the point where I came in contact with a close combat nail-cutter thrower. (yes a nail cutter thrower; even I was shocked I was expecting a shuriken or kunai)
I knew it was dangerous so when he threw the first one I caught it. It must have been his favourite piece because he bombarded me with a hail of nail cutters. Being overwhelmed, I fled running down St. Michael’s street to East Church Road with the thrower still attacking and me all the time chanting Hadou #88.. The Split Void littered the road as I attempted to slow him down.
Without knowing how and why I started flying over the main road. However, unlike in my other dreams where I fly, I wasn’t acrophobic anymore. I actually enjoyed looking down from my height. I headed to a nearby mall and looked at it then headed to a famous hotel in the neighbourhood and a few other places before I decided to land. However my body wasn’t in sync with my mind and so I landed in a place akin to Safari Park..
While flying a realization dawned on me; it was like I knew I was dying slowly for I had no more fear nor regret. My heart and mind were as calm as the deep blue sea..
I almost landed in the pool but stopped in time. Then I saw my body; and was I shocked!. I was dressed in a maroon blazer and a pleated checked skirt. Apparently I was a girl***.
A man stood over my body and I felt a familiar tug at the bottom of my heart. If I’m not mistaken it was my father. A male doctor had my body in his hands. I was in a vegetative state; my tongue swollen and hanging out of my mouth..
“It’s too late sir,” I heard the doctor say. “She used this way to escape and be free. This was her means to get wings and fly.”
My dad was quiet but I could tell he was at loss and quite sad. I found myself entering my body again and struggled to speak..
“She wants to speak but all she can say is mba.”
I realised it was futile to speak soi established a telepathic channel with dad and said:
“I know you haven’t been there for me but I don’t blame you. My choice led to this final result please don’t blame yourself..
Please dad lighten your mind,
In your heart pease do find
The time to carry me around
I’ll promise not to make a sound…”
With that said I left my body and left my crying ‘mba’ as I too shed tears of what would have been but never was…….
With that I woke up. Had I been asleep for a few more seconds, I would have woken up to a wet pillow..

PS: Originally, this was supposed to be the last post by this Deity of the Universe of Infinite; Had I posted this post on Monday the 13th. No, my SPIRIT beam still been repaired but my daughter found a way to transport me back to my Universe. For now though let me stick around some,more on this planet for a little while longer; it can be a day, a month, a year. Until next time these are the Subconscious Manifestations of Resident of Phantasmagoria and Citizen of Dream Land; Upper 1st Tier Diamond Stand

*PS the correct numerical nomenclate is Bakudo #81 but since in the dream I kept saying Hadou #88, I’ll stick to it.. Btw Hadou # 88 is Hiryuu Gekizoku Shinten Raiho.. Go read or watch Bleach and you’ll know..
**Yes I know I should really stop watching Bleach. Just two more episodes left then I’ll be done..
***And for the record I don’t cross-dress nor do I secretly wish to be a girl.. This Deity is sexless neuter being having neither gender nor sex.

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DESPAIR

This world shall know pain: Almighty Push.. Well I’m not a Rinnegan user having control of one of the six paths of pain.. I’m a Sharingan user preferring my Personal Infinite Tsukuyomi.. But I know despair..
What is despair?. According to a certain dictionary it is: 1. The feeling that everything is wrong and nothing will turn out well; to me the above definition is somewhat related to pessimism. 2. A state in which all hope is lost or absent;(v.) abandon hope; give up hope; lose heart. Now this hits the head on the nail or vice versa..
What is hope?. The general feeling that some desire will be fulfilled; optimism.. I am a realist and fairly practical.. Its all good to be hopeful that you will be saved by the coastguard during a shipwreck; but please board the life raft and stay away from the circling sharks..
Where am I headed with this?. Truthfully, this is just another rant and rave of a disconcerted Deity of the Universe of Infinite stuck in this world. I am but an empty hollow shell in fact should the Gotei Juu san squads find out I’ll be treated as a hollow and most likely slayed by a zanpaktou; not that I’ll stick around for me to be found. Though I really do want to have a duel with Kuchiki Byakuya and Yamamoto Genryusai. Which will win, my Eternal Mangekyou Sharingan Jutsu or their pathetic zanpaktou, kidou and hadou?
I think it is pretty clear. Anyway I have strayed too far. Where was I?. Souka, life has become totally meaningless for this Deity. Not only is it dull but just the thought of living is strong enough to turn me into a frog stone statue; reminiscent of taking in too much sage jutsu.. My pastimes have past their time.. They no longer challenge nor stimulate my mind. Art gives me a heart attack; writing has become a task; dancing, I need a partner; chess well I’m too smart for the AI but I always lose to it; manga and anime are the only oasis left but just like a water hole, they too are drying up. The remaining of my hobbies require too much preparation and resources.. I think I have become laid back like Coyote Starrk and Kyouraku Taicho combined, no in fact I have a defeatist, altruistic attitude. If I was a Pokémon monster, I’d be Snorlax.
So what’s my Marshall Plan?. None at all.. Like a flame left on it own, I will flicker, putter and die out slowly.. Maybe then I can join my fellow Deities in our super hyped Elysium Fields, where I can frolic in the sun with Odysseus son of Laertes, Agamemnon and Menelaus Aitrides, weave a web with Penelope cousin of Helen of Troy, Ask Achilles son of the sea nymph to show me his heel; before I take my rightful place in Olympia seated next to my mentor and all time favourite Greek goddess Pallas Athena daughter of Titan Métis and Zeus son of Cronos and Rhea. With her we will plot how to overthrow Aegis bearing Zeus and rule over Olympia..

Death of a Deity

It is really hard to kill a Deity.. If you go down the time stream you’ll see very few gods if any have ever been killed.. Usually they are just stripped of their powers; banished and exiled from their abodes; imprisoned in faraway places where there influence can not be felt..

Think I am lying? Read Greek mythology and see the fate of the Titans Cronos and Rhea; or if you prefer more modern examples check out how Aizen Sousuke couldn’t be killed but was rather placed in solitary confinement.

So what does this have to do with the death of a Deity if it is hard to kill one? Well, honestly I have no idea where to begin, but I do know where to end.

Life and Death are a pair of nexus that can’t be undone at least for now. Where light falls, darkness has to follow close behind; therefore  where life lands, death is closely following in her footsteps. Hypothetically, what is created can be destroyed; that is the bare and harsh truth.

For the agnostics and the Theists, you are all thimking, if a deity dies, doesn’t all the deity’s creation stand a chnace of also being destroyed? for the atheists at least that conundrum does not really bother you.

Subconscious Manifestations : The Calling

I am a troubled soul. I thnk my alternate universes are converging to one point. Either that or I am just bonkers.. Of late my subconscious manifestations have become more vivid and real. It has reached the point where I even feel in my dreams. Previously I could only cry in my dreams and wake up to a wet pillow but that was a once in a blue moon achievement. Now however, I can hear in my dreams, get hurt and just basically experience all the senses and wake up to find the physical manifestation: And no I don’t find I have eaten my pillow..
Recently someone called me a schizophrenic and I vehemently denied I am one and still do.. But she got me thinking, its true I avoid human contact and try to keep it at the barest minimum level I possibly can;meaning because of work. However most of the time even when I am at work I buffer myself with a cloak of daydreams and vivid imagination. When I am free I immediately dive into either my literary universe or the Manga world. I happen to find myself more at ease with the characters in the said universes than real humans.
This reminds me of an episode in Bleach where to achieve Bankai one has to enter the Zanpaktou’s universe amd bring it to the human one. Or even Naruto where using the Kuchiyose no Jutsu to transport items to a said place. However, in my case it is a reverse Summoning as it seems the different worlds of which I claim residence are all calling to me.. To make matters worse, this world no longer holds any appeal to me.. I think I will jump on the offer of exiting this mundane world and go to where I truly belong…

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